Where are you, where am I?

23/2/2016


" This will be the last from me to you for her and all."
" I will miss all this always."
" I determine my self to go after you and our years of relationship."
" I will marry you, my Princess. Love, Forever."
" Love you. Love me?"
" I don't have much feeling at that time."
" I will be by your side no matter what. Always will be here when you need me."
" I give up. I'm try connecting with her since you keep say so."
" Last time is different. Now we both not together, so what's the problem?"
" If yesterday you came back, we will back together. But you didn't"
" She ask me back together with you. Do you know that?"
" Darling, is me give you lots of pressure right"
" If we back together, this will be our engagement ring; if not, is a gift from me to you."


Enough. I told my self enough. Stop thinking about the past relationship. It won't come back no matter what you do or trying to.

He make up his mind not be with you even he not seeing any one.

All the conversation, words, lines and promises. I miss you.

I can do every thing I want. Just not be with you again. Why I don't have the courage to go after you again just like you did? I love you just as much as you did. Is me stopping my self or I know and you told me we won't get back together as you put a full stop between us when you decide go after her.

I hate writing all this out. For so long, still I didn't evolve to a better me. Still stuck in missing you, hoping we can back to old time.



Thank you for all the memories,

Thank you for all the thing you done for me,

Thank you for all the unforgettable experiences,

Thank you for making me overly attached with you,

Thank you for make me build my life around you,

Thank you for make me believe you are the one for me,

Thank you for giving me all the advice,

Thank you for all the time spend on me,

Thank you for all the effort you put in to fix thing and make thing works,

Thank you for left me with regrets and loneliness,

Thank you for you moved on first,

Thank you for all the sweet lines and promises that you didn't deliver not delivered,

Thank you for stand beside me occasionally when I got conflict with the family,

Thank you for proving me that you can be sweetest person to me but I'm not only one,

Thank you for not drawing the line between friends and being flirty,

Thank you for all the misunderstanding between me and you,

Thank you for all the fight and obstacles that we been through,

Thank you for all the challenge you give to me to accept or not on your perspective about bestie,

Thank you for your thoughts about between girl n guy there is pure friendship, not only friends with emotional attach,

Thank you for shape me to a person more consideration,

Thank you for give me opportunity to know and rebuild myself,

Thank you for make me force my self to pick up and complete what I don't feel like doing last time,

Thank you for the chances I got to realise there is others love and be with me no matter what.



Love you very much. I won't say forever like you did. I will live my life to the fullest even with the regrets I didn't get to be with you till end of my life like I say you will be my last.

Love you. I'm here waiting, even I know it won't happen, will never happen. 

Time, is some thing we can't turn back. Wrong timing, is some thing out of our control. 

Fall in love with you and gone so deep in my heart, is lost control.