Pushed

Once again, what I did pushed you till the max, force you stay away from me even further. I know you can't say it because you have the sympathy towards me. 

I appreciate that. I know you will love her more than me. I'm just filler in you life. Grateful you say it now when I in the stage of acceptance. 

My world breaking apart althought there is nothing much left. Start some thing new always easier to fix the broken part. I can forgive but not to my self. I always wan to fix the broken part instead start new life. Call me selfish or pathetic. That's how I live my life. 

I will not stop loving you but will stay away from you and her life. May be watching you in love is my bigger happiness. 

Argh! Very complicated feeling now. Just stop.