16 March 2015
After work, came home. During the day, think of u. Even I'm busy working but sudden will have chest pain feeling came out middle of no where. You read my msg very quickly, but not reply immediately. I might over think this but I can't help it. Is either u holding on your phone all time to keep contact with her or u need time to think about how to reply me. In order to make me feel we not close at all.
I'm happy with our talk last night. Initial I tot we have no more possibility when u say there is not fair for any one of us when u trying to be with her and keep me aside, u thinking of moving out and stuff like that. The msg of asking me do I still think that you can be the one that I used to know, my answer is 100% yes.
Just like how I fall in love with u, simple as I know you will take care of me no matter how. Still I believe that.
I don't know what u believe in. You might lost your way, she might be the light house to guide you through. I do not know. What I know and what I'm gonna do is leave no more regrets, at least I tried.
According last night talk, we been miss out lots of chances that we actually can be together again. From our first fight all the way till now. One of the main reason is we never express our thoughts with each other. You or me could have told each other please stay with me or come back to me. We make things work. Example the night we argue and I ran away and didn't come home. You could have just tell me to come back and hug me tightly, that time I was waiting. But it didn't happen, I tot you stop trying and I'm not important any more.
I dun wan repeat the same mistake again, hence here am I telling you that I wan to stay with you. I believe you will be the one and I do what ever it takes to fix or build back what we have torn down.
I do not know what u have make up your mind, I remember I woke up on your arms this morning and you back to trying with her mode the moment u woke up in conscious. I promise my self to let u think about it and before that I will be waiting. Please do let me know when u feeling uncomfortable with what I'm doing and ask me stop waiting or stop trying. I would do that for you.
What pei wen say is right, you make sure the person is happy is another kind of love. I would like to see you to be happy and in love. In love not suppose to one person is the boss another is listener or so, it suppose to hold each other hand, look in their eyes and walking together till end of the life.
I really wan to be with you, but single hand can't clap. Please really do let me know if you wan me to stop trying.
Be happy. Love was Princess once
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