Announcement!!!

Every one your attention please!

To those who read my blog please take note as below, no matter you do care or don't. As below:

1. Please read from Lovelife Throw back -1 instead start from the lastest post to know the complete story.
2. Do not judge until you fully understand how complicated it is, you don't know me life, I don't know yours as well unless you shared.
3. Every thing I wrote is purely my heart feelings, writing blog is my way to release them.
4. Me and my ex broke up year back. Now is purely my side of story. *you will understand if you follow announcement 1.*
5. If you don't understand or have any suggestion please feel free to contact me for clarification. Do not ASSUME.

Thanks for all the concern and care.

Regards,
Josephine Lim Tian  Hui
Blog name: Princess Josephine

Wake up

"Thing got worse. Happy?" "I gave up every thing already, just leave me."

I'm angry, jealous, sad, all sort of feeling mix together.

I been waiting for you. You have some thing can't let go, you don't want to face it. I jealous every time you spend time with her, wonder why I didn't get a chance like that?

Okay. I know I went wrong direction again. My brain or me gonna split into 2 already. Super contradictive. The positive, move on part suppose to overcome the other side. But the fact is so damn hard. I went crazy, trace down and imagine all the possibility when, how you both together.

I sick of it but it so out of control. The self control part really need to improve.

Josephine Lim Tian Hui, wake up and look at the fact. The following suppose to plant deeply and fully understand, hence put your 100% effort to make it work.

1. He already told you to stop every thing and stay away from him and his love.
2. He already gave up what's between us and make thing clear, no more talk is needed.
3. You asked him to follow his heart, now he choose to be with her and leave you alone. You should understand and leave.
4. You are not him princess anymore, he got his darling and every thing happen to you, used to belong to you, is her's now.
5. Stop thinking you still have chances to be with him. You will not, and never be.
6. Your goals is to leave, do not let your loving heart took over.
7. You love him, but he don't. 
8. You not ready to fall in love until you be a better person. The one is waiting some where out there.

 Move on, bitch. You not the one. Face it and suck it in. You tried, and you failed.

Pushed

Once again, what I did pushed you till the max, force you stay away from me even further. I know you can't say it because you have the sympathy towards me. 

I appreciate that. I know you will love her more than me. I'm just filler in you life. Grateful you say it now when I in the stage of acceptance. 

My world breaking apart althought there is nothing much left. Start some thing new always easier to fix the broken part. I can forgive but not to my self. I always wan to fix the broken part instead start new life. Call me selfish or pathetic. That's how I live my life. 

I will not stop loving you but will stay away from you and her life. May be watching you in love is my bigger happiness. 

Argh! Very complicated feeling now. Just stop. 

Smoking

Never like smoking, but why I pick it up and took a sip? At first found it fascinating when such amazing thing how it light up and burn. *I know I'm weirdo*

Found it more amazing when while it burn and take a smoke. Feel the smoke, the taste then the after taste stay around you month and can feel the lungs catch up some different thing. Some time got into the nose kind of annoying. I think that happen to newbie *like me*. Love the smell of tobacco or ciggy before it been light up, just like the coffee scent. The moment got light up, it turn to some thing else. The changes of scent really reflect who you are. You got pushed too hard and lighted up your the other side.

Don't ask me or wonder how I relate all this. Even I don't know, is my heart and instinct feel that way. I just transform them to words. Feelings is overwhelming.

Smoking just like my heart now. I know I'm not suppose to, but can't resist and did it again.

Negative vibes all around, trying to stay positive, but some moment just can't help it. Getting frust with my self. Why I can't make it? Should push my self harder. They having sweet moment just like what you had last time. 5 years, what else you haven't experience before? You had that, live with that. His future don't have you any more.

Can't forget the conversation the road map, keep visualise how sweet and how adore when you both be together. I lost it. I know I'm not suppose to care or bother, just can't help it. 

Down time, lovey moment, all source of happy or bad moment. From nothing, build up till who we are, what we have now. Yes, now no longer on the same path. Why am I still wishing we can cross over our life again? Only found out when you gone, I have love you like a fool.

I'm lost star. I still love you just the same.

Enlighten

14 April 2015

Feel so much lighter now. Such a burden or past finally can put it down and move on.

Yes, I do miss you and you sneak in to my mind unexpectedly. Well, at least I don't feel that much of pain and more easier for me to put my attention back on what I suppose to do.

I will be a better person. For my own future, even my future family, lover or partner. No one can love your self for you. Is your choice. You should deserve it.

God close the door but He will open another window for you. Look outside, better life or future awaits. Set the goals, make sure no matter it take, don't get distract and lost middle of no way. I been that stage and it sucks. This experience is a great lesson, when in that situation, only will feel miserable, but now different. I can look back and tell my self, I can do this nothing can stop me and learn from mistake or regrets. Do better next time.

Every one in your life mean some thing for you. They are there for a reason. Just like the wrong choice I made, I gain so much friends and people willing to give me a hand when I feeling down, depress. I really appreciate you all be by my side. If I did or say some thing mean, please forgive me. I really grateful to have you all.

Focus on self development. Eventually I will met the one who have same understanding, maturity and willing to compromise for our future. Relationship is not about love, he/she suppose to be your partner, best friend, mentor and etc. A relationship can keep inspire and support each other.

Thank you for giving me so much memories in common, time for me to create my own awesome moment. No regrets. I still will love you always, is not about being together, but live our life in different and better way.

Full stop

12 April 2015

One month anniversary.
One month ago, the same date is the day you decided to try to be with her. Looks like thing goes well.

How sweet and thoughtful you are. Just like what you did to me last time. I'm not jealous, grateful I had once.

I'm learning to be alone. As Jac say, what is gone is gone. Heart knows better than brain. Agree.
I didn't listen to my heart hence here am I.

I did not appreciate thing beside me, it will leave me.

Finally, I done compilation. Disconnect the app soon. Let you go, will be the best for you. I would do that for you.

All because of you. Time to say goodbye, my love. Painful but for you, I can do it.

Throwback Love Life - 75

27 March 2015


Outside raining. This used to be our favourite moment that can cuddle and asleep. But now, every thing different. You drive your self away from me, you change all your habit to whole new level, every thing about you I'm no longer a part of it.

You always ask why am I thinking so much. I'm trying not to but I feel so insecure. The only thing calm me down still thinking about you and all our sweet moment and how much you used to love me.

I don't dare to ask how much love you left for me. Till now I think from little to none. She have you, I'm just a ex. But you are my every thing. I don't know how to let you feel my love again, while you n her getting better. I wan to be selfish, don't wan you move on, be with me. But at the same time I wan you be your self and do things that make you happy.

So complicate and I have no idea how to deal with it. I don't wan to believe you wan to be different path way with me. I made mistake, I wan to fix it. But one hand can't clap. All the small details I can see you have make up your mind. Still I trying very hard to get back our moment.

I'm trying to put my self together and stay strong until u think I'm the one. For now, it hurts but I'm gonna wait until you say please leave me alone.

Love you always. ❤

Throwback Love Life - 74

23 March 2015


I'm doing the compilation what is here and the other number. While doing that, i really going through where u been. All the pain and tears when u know your love one is going out and loving the other person.

May be the way I let go will be the same as you. When u decided in relationship with her. Let go doesn't mean I gave up on loving u. I still love you very much. After we been through so much still we can't make it. I keep blame my self that make the wrong choice and when I have chance I didn't appreciate it and cause me today.

I can't stop crying when I think about how thin is the chances we will get back together and all this time the one u thinking is not me any more. I wish I can turn back the clock and undo every thing. But I can't. I won't able to. I wish I know the way to let u love me back. I just clueless as you are last time.

U been trying for 6 months since June 2014. Until January 2015, u decided to gave up when I make the choice. When I realise I took a wrong step and look back, you no longer there.

Now, that's kill me. I really wan to be with u again, but I have to keep telling my self that's is not possible. U n her loving each other and getting better. I just miserable ex gf wan to be love again.

Princess have to learn to be alone and stay strong. No matter how, I still love u very much and I really wan u to be happy. If I'm in pain and suffer can get u happiness I willing to do so. As Michael say, being victim and telling ppl how miserable am I is not gonna help and make me look like an idiot begging for love and sympathy.

My dear, love u always.

Throwback Love Life - 73

20 March 2015


Come back home after long day. The only thing come to my mind is I miss you. Miss you badly. Don't how to express how much I love u and miss you. I won't hide my feeling in here. The place have so much feelings.

I do think about u n her, wondering how's thing going between u n her. Is there any chance u won't make it with her and u need my hug. The other side, I wan u to be happy and I shouldn't be pushy. Listen to songs and cry is the only way I can release my true feelings.

Another torturing part is waiting for your msg. I'm so happy when I read those u send me to tell me how are you. Small but make me happy.

I talked to pei wen all this time, when I miss you, when I think about us, think about what u doing, how u doing. She ask me let go. Shouldn't stay and sticking around any more. You don't have heart for me any more, why should stay. Leave, better choice.

But my heart say no, I wan be with you. Is that true if you love some one although you both can't be together but at least the one happy and you should let go? Any one actually keep holding on the love and don't give up? Are you wan me to give up as well? Please tell me.

Don't know what to say any more. Bad mood again. Just like u last time, I wish you will love me and be with me again. I'm sorry for every thing I did. I didn't see all the rational behind every thing u did.

Love you always.

Throwback Love Life - 72

18 March 2015

The very first night you won't be home. I have to admit I gone crazy. I can't sleep and keep thinking so much. Then I send you the msg below.

"I guess u with her tonight. That's impossible u stay offline for so long. I can't talk to u that number, then I talk to this my own imagination you bah. You guys might sleeping hugging each other by now. I'm jealous. But I can't do any thing. Should slap my self n say deal with it idiot. He not with u any more, he don't have heart for u any more. I can't sleep, without u."

I stay awake till 4am, decided to drive to your hotel to see if you were there. I can't get your by searching iPhone, one of the reason I went. After saw your car were in the car park, my heart still pumping and wondering how you doing. I hold my self back to keep calling you, drive my self home. I only able to sleep for a while then 6am I'm wide awake. Till time to go work.

Throughout the day, countless time I told pei wen how much I miss you, how badly I wan to be with you. She is the one I can express my feelings to and won't look down at me and support me all the way. Almost end of the day I can hold back any more, decided to sent this to your the other number.

" I miss you, I love you. I will never have u back and got u hug me in your arms again. Love you in a different way. Feel so relief when I know can love one person with all my heart and he still will be happy walking on different path without me. "

I learnt to stop thinking about u n her, instead open my self to still loving you, to miss you and every think about you. That's make me feel better instead keeping all the real feeling aside. You know, when you have so much love for the other person is such a happiness and although u can't be with that person or not reachable, at least I'm honest to my self and being my self again.

Is hard to let go and seeing a fact that don't have any chances to be together again or be in your arms again. But I will learn to be one. Just like what u say before, I will be there for you no matter how, either be a friend or lover in the best scenario.

I would say I love you with all my heart, in a different way with current situation. Be strong and believe you self, I know you can do better than me. I always do.

From, your princess for once.

Throwback Love Life - 71

18 March 2015


Well, after all I miss you. That's all I can say. According our afternoon conversation, seem like you taking a separate path. I was refuse to believe it. Things different now. I got very touch while you still worry about how I feel and all the real intension behind what u trying to do to keep us together. But same time you keep distance, don't wan me have hope or misunderstood your intension.

You say up to me how to think about it, is very true. I won't avoid any thing about u but instead I will look up and face what coming next. I realise what I have did wrong all this while and nothing can fix the past. We have to look forward right.

I grateful u found some one can let you move on. I will move on by my self. Find a piece of my self and start put together. I won't hide my feeling towards u any more, but will find another way to share or talk about it. Avoiding is not an option. Should learn to face it and make up mind.

U know, some time I have that thoughts u actually still love me but u decided not show me, keep it by your self and let the time goes by and you hope u can forget about it.

Just wan to share this. I still love you, I won't forget about u, u was big part of my life and still I need to live on without u. I let my self flooded in your kindness and sweetness and keep those great memories. I love you once and love you forever in different kind of love.

I'm might not the best, not the last, not the greatest gf ever but I did my best in every thing expect 2 things. Believe and confident in our relationship. I do regrets why am I realise and understand thing so late, I got blinded by jealousy. I apologise for all the circumstances.

Sincerly, your princess for once.

Throwback Love Life - 70

16 March 2015


After work, came home. During the day, think of u. Even I'm busy working but sudden will have chest pain feeling came out middle of no where. You read my msg very quickly, but not reply immediately. I might over think this but I can't help it. Is either u holding on your phone all time to keep contact with her or u need time to think about how to reply me. In order to make me feel we not close at all.

I'm happy with our talk last night. Initial I tot we have no more possibility when u say there is not fair for any one of us when u trying to be with her and keep me aside, u thinking of moving out and stuff like that. The msg of asking me do I still think that you can be the one that I used to know, my answer is 100% yes.

Just like how I fall in love with u, simple as I know you will take care of me no matter how. Still I believe that.

I don't know what u believe in. You might lost your way, she might be the light house to guide you through. I do not know. What I know and what I'm gonna do is leave no more regrets, at least I tried.

According last night talk, we been miss out lots of chances that we actually can be together again. From our first fight all the way till now. One of the main reason is we never express our thoughts with each other. You or me could have told each other please stay with me or come back to me. We make things work. Example the night we argue and I ran away and didn't come home. You could have just tell me to come back and hug me tightly, that time I was waiting. But it didn't happen, I tot you stop trying and I'm not important any more.

I dun wan repeat the same mistake again, hence here am I telling you that I wan to stay with you. I believe you will be the one and I do what ever it takes to fix or build back what we have torn down.

I do not know what u have make up your mind, I remember I woke up on your arms this morning and you back to trying with her mode the moment u woke up in conscious. I promise my self to let u think about it and before that I will be waiting. Please do let me know when u feeling uncomfortable with what I'm doing and ask me stop waiting or stop trying. I would do that for you.

What pei wen say is right, you make sure the person is happy is another kind of love. I would like to see you to be happy and in love. In love not suppose to one person is the boss another is listener or so, it suppose to hold each other hand, look in their eyes and walking together till end of the life.

I really wan to be with you, but single hand can't clap. Please really do let me know if you wan me to stop trying.

Be happy. Love was Princess once

Throwback Love Life - 69

15 March 2015



That's it for all.

I had that thought to kill my self the second I end the call. I found it so depressing and heart broken till I not even know how to cry.

I'm lucky that I have 2 great friends come all the way to keep me company and talking and spend some time with me.

Every one is selfish but in some case they are selfless. I'm grateful that I'm in the case they selfless for me.

During the talk, there is 2 option. I know myself just wan to be with you and carry the pain. They was saying man is selfish, ego, and ass hole stuff like that. Ask me stop taking all the responsibility what cause today.

I'm not sure what I wan to do. Every thing I did make things worse. It will go totally different direction from what I expecting.

But most of all I wan to share is no matter what u doing, what u told her or what others told me, I still believe you are the one will take care of me no matter how or no matter what.

At least for now, you still come home. You have feelings for her, you trying but you not in love with her yet.

You or others ppl can say I'm the one sticking around, don't wan to let go but I know is because I love you. Although u might find me annoying or give you stress and she just happen can be you side listen and share things with you. I'm happy for it as in she done what I can't.

Finally I understand that if you have nothing for me, you won't come home or take care or think of me. This understanding come so late and I might lost you from what i have done.

By all mean, I love you as much as I can, give you space as much as I can, keep waiting as long as I can. Even though in the end you told me you don't have any thing for me, at least I kept my promise and did my best.

They say I'm stupid and I have a choice. Yes I do. Is the matter of choice. Then this is my choice, I think it will worth it.

This journey will not be an easy one, but I will try.

I will not sabotage between you n her, but I hope if possible spare some care or time to me if you still think that we have future. If not please tell me that we won't make it any more, so that I can leave and god bless you.

There is more actually, too much thoughts, feelings and love to share. After all, I'm not cool or strong type of person, I wish for loving care. Be an only one princess to some one love me the most, I will make him the happiest person in his world. Promise.

Throwback Love Life - 68

14 March 2015

"After all now recall back 9 months as u say to her we will no work any more. I found now this situation is when mike in the picture. When I decide wan to give a try with him. I still can remember how mean am I that time and how much pain u going through. If back to that situation, I can feel what u going through that time and hope you can understand what I thinking that time. Others details is just part of the process. "

Yes indeed, after morning awake when u say I'm annoying, bad mood all the way until I got this figure out.

When I put my self in that situation with our role exchanged, every thing make so much sense now. What comes around goes around. That time I took revenge and take advantage, now I will walk through that.

This might be my last note, not sure will u reading all this, but during the time u posting I do read them and they reminds me no matter how you will be around.

Take care my love, u always part of my life or even part of me.

Throwback Love Life - 67

13 March 2015


U seems happy. Not sure is some thing good happen in work or she make you that happy. I got bit jealous but I tell me self don't think so much. Should happy for you that u smile again.

I pack up my feeling and thoughts wan to be with you but at this moment please just spare your hugs while we still can sleep side by side. It won't be long.

I know you got things plan out, I'm really happy about it. Finally you outgrow from what I think you are. You can do it and just perfectly fine.

I have more words to say but forget at this moment. Drop down when I remember.

Love you.

Throwback Love Life - 66

12 March 2015


" After all the thought last night and after all you have been saying about ice. I have really feuded to move out. And may be I will try make a connection with her. I will give a try. Since you can't believe what I have been telling you. "

I heart broke in pieces just like last time. I repeat the same thing make the same mistake.

How lucky am I I got the 2nd chance that you love me so much. But I let it go, turn my back went to some asshole.

Now I'm back with all my love but you have decided not to have it.

After all the incident and my stupidity, push you ever more distance.

I must stop expecting or pray for you will hold my hand again and love me as much as me.

I promise and I swear, if god give me any chance that u willing give a try between us, I will do my very best. Just like u, do what ever it takes to be in love again.

Stop I. It should be us. Love is strong when both heart beat as one, love is fragile and weak when only one hand try to clap.

Heads up and keep walking. Tomorrow will be a better day, tears is the sign of grow up. Is part of the process.

Time stamp this, I love no one besides you but faith wan us to stay apart. The only regrets is when I have a chance to have your love again and I let it go.

Throwback Love Life - 65

March 11, 2015

Our story, what we gone through here wont' be fit it all.

Toss for wealth, health and happiness.

We will be better without each other.

Love you forever and I'm grateful u was part of my life and live as princess, protect by your arms for once.

Throwback Love Life - 64

March 3, 2015

In our app, document down lots of feelings and memories. And this is the 100th post. I been waiting for him to post up to tell me what is his decision. Might be I don't have any patient or confident. Here am I.

The 100th post. Can't wait any more longer for u.

U with her or not I really don't know. But the connection between u n her is not simple as friend and I will never understand that. That's how I feel it.

This explain lots about my feelings towards all our argument. But any how, feel free to be with any one u wan to be with. Good luck to you. Good bye to me. No more table changing.

Stop care or think about me. 

Love you. 

 

 

 

Throwback Love Life - 63

February 15, 2015

Here I'm again. After 9 months, roll back. What happen in the past happen now. I'm here talk to the invisible man again, a phone number belong to u. Hoping u will read all the message I sent u before. U know how it feels, I know how it feels. Why we still doing this to each other? Because I can't let go? Or u wan to keep me as alternative? May be friendship is the thing u cherish the most.

I can't make u feel happy or comfortable any more. In between us too much obstacle. Happen 2nd time, every moment I told my self I should let go. No matter is love or as what ever it is. But deep my heart always say no. Always find a reason to leave but always can find another reason to stay. I wan every thing u do is do it to me. May be is te jealousy or I wan to control. Is too much right?

I do not know what I saying any more. I wan u to be happy, but I wan to be with u at the same time. No matter what u have done I still love u very much I do not know why. I tot u will be waiting but when I turn my self to u, u gone. I know bit and pieces of u still love me. Just not as much. But can u move all the loving feeling to me again just like what u do before?

I do what ever it takes to go back to that loving moment. I wan to know I wan to clarify, yet I'm scared. I scare to blow off every thing again just like how u respond to me today. Why don't u go to him and I take care of her. How painful when I saw that line. Are u really mean it or just wan to get ride of me? I don't wan what I'm talking any more. Full stop here.

 Love u always.

Throwback Love Life - 62

February 2, 2015

A letter I wrote to him. 

"I read ur previous note to feel better;

I work harder to feel better;

I look through our pictures to feel better;

I date and hang around to feel better;

I cry to feel better;

I keep my self occupied to feel better;

Remind my self with all the past good memories to feel better.

Love and miss you always.

From: the one you loved once"


I really miss him. I did the same again, send those word to his secondary number and hoping he might see it at the same time I don't want him saw it. Message content as below:

This number message history carry so much memories. U don't have it but I do. When I got hurt here it is. When u got hurt all store in the lovebyte app. When I combine both of it, our lor journey really not a easy one. We really dun have the faith to be together spend rest of our life together. May be.

Choice is in our hand. I have 2nd chance but I let it go. Make a wrong call when I realise is gone. Exactly how u felt for the pass few months. U think is time to let go bit I think is time to come back. Too bad u no longer there waiting. U move on. No longer care or feel is needed fix what's is wrong. I say all up to u. But I hope u would say yes to restart and rebuild. And my answer is yes I do for your proposal. If u say no to our future, I need to pick it up and move on. No point regrets as u say. U r the one all the time, right person wrong timing.

  

Throwback Love Life - 61

January 30, 2015

Some quote I saw from some line online.

1. The only way that some people will never learn to appreciate you, is by losing you.
2. You know you have moved on when you no longer wish to fix the things you have always wanted to fix.
3. Those love you make you better; those hurt you make you strong

4. When you are lost, follow your dreams. They know the way.

Throwback Love Life - 60

January 29, 2015

Me:

U have feelings for another person, can it be your heart still have room for me?

Right person, wrong timing. How torturing that will be? I think I know.


If I decided to come back, but u unsure will u be with me, u wan ur things to focus on and don't wan think about us. What should I do then?

Sorry what I did previously hurts you. I just selfish try to have every thing and protect my self without considering about others.

If there any possibility, I would wan to fix between us. Thanks for the shirt, I miss every thing when u around me.

Throwback Love Life - 59

January 27, 2015

Me:

Hate u hate u hate u.

Why all this keep happening.

Can't just for once u can prove that u not that kind of person any more

Sweet talk girls u know the best la.

I don't wan those kind of life any more. Have to deal with girls and your issue.

Can't u see what's happen during our break up now happening again.

Why can't u do some thing and show me. I'm tired. I wanted to go back to your arms again. Why can't u stop all this. Like how u stop doing all that to amariah.

U know I can't forget what happen previously. Can't u avoid all that.

U busy and wan to focus working, but still have time to sweet talk and annoy girls.

Those things I tot I will be only now but now I'm sharing.

U not do what u saying. I'm angry and I don't like it.

But now u start to react like last time, "what u wan me to say then u be happy". U know what I wan u to do.

Until then, prove to me u really mean what u promised. Is much harder to back to our relationship I know u knew that. Please do it so that I have a reason to be with u again.

Throwback Love Life - 58

January 17, 2015

From him:

Pity my Princess. All sick, alone and worst have to have a big quarrel with that person.

Dear dear, please take good care of your health as it is the most important. Then arrange your style and lives according to your needs.

Last but not least, I still miss you very much.

Nites.


P/s from me: He wrote this to me because I told him I love and likes all the documentation how he feels about me and it makes me happy.

Throwback Love Life - 57

January 4, 2015

Early Birthday celebration for him. Hope all your wish come true.
We went to our very first date restaurant, where we started our relationship.
He saying that where is started, then where it should end. It hurts, and in bottom of my heart were saying, This will not be our last date. I still love you.

Throwback Love Life - 56

December 27, 2014

From him:

It's been quite lonely this year end.

Sadly nothing much can be to it and can be done. I wish all bads are washed away.

Throwback Love Life - 55

December 22, 2014




From him:



I have not move on anywhere yet. I know you feel jealous that's why I feel sad. Seriously, days past by and by, and I can feel my heart starting to get heavy or becoming like a rock. I think this is the feeling when your heart becomes black. Nothing else matters and no feel of love anymore. Don't want to go anywhere. Don't care if anything.

Sadly I don't know what to feel anymore. I'm not sure how long I'm going to be stuck like this though. This will be the worst in my life. Feeling hopeless and emptiness.

Nothing but work

You my dear, things get worst, leave. Don't make your self so suffer. Not worth it. Do the best.

I would really wish and liked you to pick me up every night and send me home like you do to him. I never have the chance before.

I don't know what I'm saying anymore. I'm going to stop here. Good night and sleep tightly. My place here will always welcome you.

Throwback Love Life - 54

December 21, 2014

From me:


Congratulation. U moved on.
Yes. I'm jealous and I'm not in a good mood. Too much thing happen and I feel pressure.

I can't expect u to stay and wait. Come and go like a pet. U r human, got a life to live with.

I have made the choice, so I need to deal with it. Things slowly reveal. U will see I suffer with it. Things just will not be the way I thought. Is much more different and I need to suck it in.

Take care and miss you always. I love the way u being protective, I guess every girls in this world love that way. All the best and bless you.

Throwback Love Life - 53

December 11, 2015


From him:


What a wonderful night, sadly my princess is not here to enjoy em. I just got better a lot. And thought of finishing up all I have to do so I can spend some humble and quality time with my princess. Sadly, she is not here tonight and tomorrow.

Tonight weather is cooling, moon is bright, stars are little to be seen but just perfect to have a beautiful, wonderful night together. Last but not least, good night & sweet dreams my princess. I miss you from the bottom of my humble heart.

Throwback Love Life - 52

December 8, 2014

From him:

A decision has been made. And I'm happy what you had decided the best for you and your path.

For your info, yes I am very sad. But give me some time and I will recover. I know I had did my best to try get back the relation. What had happen together with you for these 6 years I will treasure all of it. It is my best out of all years in my life.

I'm sorry I can't sleep, there are lots and lots of thoughts going through my mind and my tears never stop dripping slowly. I can't cry out loud, that's the hard part.

I Love You FOREVER. And I mean it. You will and always will be my one and only PRINCESS. No one can ever replace you. You are the best. If you ever need anything, my arms are always welcoming you no matter when, where, how, and what, I will be there.

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December 6, 2014

From him:

Bored to max when she is not around. Seriously I don't know much on what to do if she leaves me. All I have to hold on is her. But her heart is not with me much already. She is happier with some one else.

Dear Princess, a choice has to be done. Sooner or later, walk the path to your righteousness. If you were to leave me, I will be fine. I will miss you deeply. More than my ex. Look for me anytime if you facing trouble. I will be glad to help in all ways.

I love you and will always love you. Never for my love will ever fade away for what I had done.

Throwback Love Life - 50

November 25, 2014

Me:

Received a ring from him. Woke up in the morning and the ring box right next to me. This is the 4th one (I missed place 3 of them), suppose to be engagement ring. It have "Princess" engrave, meant to be mine only. It become a gift as I'm not ready and still wonder should we back together.

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November 20, 2014

From him:

How on earth can I have you back?

I miss you so much as my girlfriend.

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November 10, 2014

From him:

What a great and wonderful day yesterday. I wish the day like yesterday will never end.

Princess cooking is wonderful. I'm eating vege like no other before, Now eating again, It's super good.

Never the best Anniversary Day.

Throwback Love Life - 47

October 29, 2014

From him:

Tonight I'm super emotional. I don't weather it's me that sometimes I'm doing something not right for her or may be some times I just want to be loved like before. I really does loves her in so many ways and it's always not getting in to her. Or may be she doesn't love me anymore.


Big question is "WHAT CAN I DO TO CHANGE ALL THIS?". Am I loving her wrongly? Am I pampering her wrongly? Am I taking care of her in a wrong way? What am I not doing RIGHT??


Please show me the way, show me the right path to your heart, please love me back as I love you. I don't want this to continue like this anymore. It's suffering in a way, It hurts a lot.


I don't want to do bad anymore. I don't want to have any other girl besides than you. I don't want any other love than yours. I just want your love. That's all I want. I can be your man of what you want me to do. I just want your love back.

Her caring loving love. Please show me the way to get there.

Throwback Love Life - 46

October 27, 2014

From Him:

Today you not feeling well my Princess. Please take care and get well soon.

I don't like seeing you sick. It feels pain. Rest well and be well.

Throwback Love Life - 45

October 26, 2014

From him:

Our 5th Anniversary is around the corner. Sadly, I don't have anything except my heart and love towards you. I know the future thing can't be proved, I only can prove to you how much you matters to me and means to me.

Once I grab hold of you fully back, I will never ever let it go any more.

I Love you Princess.

Throwback Love Life - 44

October 20, 2014

From Him:

Super pity my Princess. Supposed to come home tonight but ended up missing her flight and was crying badly. Wish I was there to hold you tight and comfort you.

However, most important you are safe. Don't worry about the money as I always say, can earn back. Come back safely tomorrow Princess.

Muaksz, I miss you and love you always and forever.

Throwback Love Life - 43

October 11, 2014

From him:

Wonderful evening with my Princess at Paradigm Mall. She look so lovely and cheerful. Wish she is always like that.

Thank you for being together with me today. I miss you and love you badly.

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October 9, 2014

From Him:

I pity my Princess so much. She wants to rest and sleep so badly. but ended up being with Michael at this hours. Take Care my Princess. Please get more rest and drive safely.

Throwback Love Life - 41

October 7, 2014

From Him:

New bed, air conditioner for my beloved Princess. Hope you like the 2 surprises. My Princess.